Becoming a mom is an exciting and challenging transition in life.
Nothing has brought me more joy than becoming a mom, however, it has also provided equal moments of connection and lonliness, deep exhaustion, and has changed my physical body in ways I could never have imagined. Although, some moments can seem overwhelming, the joys that come with being someone's mommy is indescribable.
I began my journey struggling through fertility issues and was very caught off guard when both pregnancy and postpartum provided challenges.
I was diagnosed during my first pregnancy with an incompetent cervix and was deemed at risk for a premature delivery. With my first pregnancy I was in a state of deep fear and worry from 20 weeks all the way until 36 weeks. Although the doctors expected and prepared me for her to arrive at 30 weeks, my first daughter decided to enjoy the comforts of the womb until 38 weeks. Big Surprise to us all!
My second daughter was a different story...she unlike her sister was in a rush to come earth side and was born at 31 weeks. It was a very different experience. With one daughter I was stress and overwhelmed while she was in the womb and the other I was stressed and overwhelmed in a NICU room at the hospital.
Regardless of their story, I survived. I also learned that parenting with children is very different than the ideas I had in my mind.
After sometime adjusting to our new family and working to strengthen my body (healing both physically and psychologically), my husband and I decided to add one more to the mix. With my son we decided to get a cervical cerclage put in. This little guy stayed in the longest, deciding to arrive just 2 days short of 40 weeks.
Through all my experiences, I have learned to look at pregnancy and postpartum healing very differently than I had before I had children. I use these experiences to support women as they transition into these new roles.